Winter 2012 activity

To do the important thing

Around 3 years ago, one of my current housemate argued with me jokingly, "if you continue living like this (not being so friendly with others), you would be lonely when you are old." Bothered me ever since. Not only because he made my future sounds so bleak, but due to the way he made old people sounds incapable of doing anything to alter their situation.

That latter obviously is true. Old people are susceptible to sickness, less mobility and motivation. Their appearance also begin to become what happens to "look old." Old people also may be less sexually attractive (from a young person point of view). But one thing I never thought of is how it conversely affect the idea of being young.

Then it occurs to me. What is so special about being young? To be specific, what is this fear that people have from being old?

At various times, I tried to imagine what I would be when I get older. Tried to imagine myself being sick, and not able to move from the bed. What's so bad about that? I could be happy as long as I don't pose people trouble. I may even have one or two significant-others-will-be that can feed and take care of me. If that's the case, then what kind of regret that I would have?
So I thought, if I continue this path of life I am taking, I don't have any problem to reach the kind of ending like above. Of course, I am simply assuming the ideal situation here, getting good job, good family, friendly surrounding, etc.

But I am probably missing something. There is definitely something in common with what people don't like about being old. I am not entirely sure myself. Perhaps I am not that wise enough to get it yet.
But still, I don't want to realize such thing only when I get old myself. That would be sad. "If I can only think about such a thing after I experienced it when I'm old, then it would be too late."

Then it occurred to me...
"Late for what?"

I almost answered that immediately. "To change."
"I want to know such a thing while I have the power to change."

I baffled.

That's true. The power to change. That's one thing that we all have while we are young.
Our attractiveness, our energy, our physical capability, those are all seems to be the fuel to change things around us.
Deep inside me, I think this could be the answer.

Sometimes I look at the shelves at book store, look at names of recorded historians that made change to the world. "So these are the people that fully use their youth," I thought.

And sometimes, I look at family members that I used to play with as a child now have their own big family. "So these are the people that use this power to raise future generation," I thought.

And at one time, when I play Assassins Creed Revelation... "So there are also people that regret for not being able to do anything despite have changed the country for good". I know... being a fictional character Ezio is, his case might be less relevant. But the fact that the game developer put such wisdom into the character shows that the idea of "power to change" is firm in their mind as well.

I need to do something. Something that I can do. 

Another day of Summer - Preparation

In about a week or so, people are going to celebrate Eid El Fitr. The road nearby my home is already frequently congested especially during weekends.

While everyone seems to be at it, I personally am trying to keep away from all those commotion.
I don't know, I find it hard to fit myself into the energetic environment with people talking here and there, making choices and stuff. Stress-ss! When I see those people bargaining, or choosing design for their baju melayu, there seems to be a strong white light emitting from their body, full with energy. In that situation, I will immediately find a place with no one a round, or in extreme situation, find a wall to lean on. Like a bat? Yeah, probably like a bat.

During this kind of time, especially with two weeks left before my holiday at Malaysia ends, I rather go to a quiet place, look at the sky, and sing a song to myself. REALLY!
Also... the idea of decorating my house, only to have those removed at a later date was a little bit, ... demotivating.
Am I looking at things the wrong way? Probably.

(I must get myself into the mood of an enthusiastic final year student.)

---------------------

I am glad that I went home for this holiday. I think of it as calming and refreshing my nearly-depleted soul before going all-out on the next war.

"When the going gets tough, the tough gets going."

So, I would like to dedicate this music to myself, with the message, Work Hard! Don't give up, the future me!!


I compiled this music earlier using Adobe Audition. I used various tracks from a game. I think it fits the state of my mind that I am having right now ^^: a soulful preparation.

Another day of Summer - I want to grow a flower.

I think what I will do on next Saturday is to buy a pot of small flower to be grown. Maybe I'll take a picture of it everyday, and see its progress for the 2 months im in Kuching.

Hrmmm I wonder if there is any flower species that can grow from small to full bloom in 2 months. Is there any? I guess I gotta ask the seller.

Another day of summer - Hazy

I think the sky here in Malaysia isn't getting any better every year, is it?

Today I will be taking a flight to Sarawak. As far as I can tell for 2 days I am here at Kuala Lumpur, nothing much has changed. I do see many construction projects are going on here and there, but I guess that's all.
The foods are awesome as always ^^, thanks to my cousin who treated me.

As for me, I think my health has declined since my arrival. Now I often cough and sneeze. ><. *sigh*...
I wonder how will I be after one month...
Ah, and talking about that,... I think I do have some sort of allergic reaction toward cats -.-.....
I was living so happily and healthily at Edmonton when suddenly a junior came and stayed at my house with his little kitten. Since that day onward, I was sneezing nonstop -.-...
Damn.... why must it be cats??? Family aside, what else is better to hug in this world???? Sob2.

Ah... I can't wait to finish Final Fantasy XIII and Tales of Graces f.

Another day of Spring - going back home this week

Hi ya.. uhh... hrmmm... hei!

This academic year could have been the worst so far for me. Soo many thing that I have to catch up in the last minutes. I personally think that I have come to a point where I don't know where is the boundary of the thing that I should learn for the course. The course subjects have become so sparse to the extent that even my textbook have to point out different textbook for "further read" on the subject matter.

Anyway, those misery is over for now. Well, maybe it is not a total misery, because there was fun as well.

In a couple of days, I will head back to my hometown just to see what's going on there. Hahah. I will definitely be lying if I say that I don't miss home. It's about time to refresh my tastebuds with "real" Malaysian food. Fwa ha ha.

And then, what will I do? Hrmm. I am going to improvise most of the stuff, but here's what I have in mind right now.

Do some sort of part time job (other than internship stuff).

Beat my mom's cooking. This time, I will definitely do it! Yea!

I want to expose my siblings to the library. I want to make it something routine for them. I admit I was not so much a library person, but that maybe because I wasn't that much exposed when I was little. So, I want to create a change in the way my family live once in a while. I mean, why not, right?

I want to renovate my mom's house at Malihah, as well as at my kampung. One may call it the "moonCube Expansion plan," haha!

Play with my camera and go outside Kuching. Maybe my kampung or anywhere else. I mean, I have been taking a lot of videos in Canada, so why not in Malaysia, right? Heheh.

Oh yes, that said, I am thinking of reviving my "boomdeyada" project when I go to Malaysia this time and this time, I am going to take the role of directing the footage. I have learned quite a bit from here and there and my little experience handling a camera. I hope this 2 months break will be filled with much productivity, yea!

Then,.. then.... nah, I will leave the rest for further "improvising". Basically, I simply want to stay close with my family as much as possible.

=). Jya!

Phone problem

For this entry, I just want to spread that I think I found a workaround for network crash problem that happen when Location Service is used in iOS5 on iPhone 3GS (old-bootrom) with iPad baseband (06.15.00). The proposed redsn0w 0.9.9b6 solution didn't work for me.

First of all, this idea came from a comment at http://www.jailbreakqa.com/questions/75187/network-crash-that-happens-each-time-location-services-is-used-in-ios-5.

Basically, I used sn0wbreeze to create the custom IPSW and then shift-restore my 3GS via iTunes using the custom IPSW. Done.

In summary,
What I have before:
-iOS5.1 for 3GS custom made with redsn0w.
-Carrier unlocked with ultrasn0w.
-Network often crashes when Location Service is used like Google Maps, Foursquare ='(

What I have now:
-iOS5.1.1 for 3GS custom made with sn0wbreeze.
-Carrier not yet unlocked. I don't need to unlock it for now since I am using the official carrier. However I think ultrasn0w should be able to unlock it.
-So far no crash yet when Location Service is on.

I am not aware of any cons of using sn0wbreeze for the moment as it has been only a day since. Will update in case anything happen.

Update 1 (11 June 2012): I have been using Google Map and move around the city for the past 2 days. I found that the app takes longer to determine my exact location as I move from one place to another. Sometimes my "exact" location is off by 50 meter. So for now, it has not much use as GPS. Well, at least it doesn't crash.

Update 2 (21 June 2012): Did you heard about redsn0w 0.9.14.b1? Haha.

Another day of spring - Getting some fresh air

Final exam season has passed. Not sure how well can I do it this time. I hate to say it, but brutal is too simple to describe the exams -.-.

Anyway, yesterday my housemates and I went outside Edmonton to refresh ourselves. Took a video.

Another day of spring - Here I go!

Another day of winter - A little bit more!!

Another day of winter - OMG OMG OMG tomorrow is the start of my...

Another day of Skyrim?

Ever heard of Skyrim? It is a western RPG made by Bethesda which is set in a world where dragons exist. I like it a lot because of the depth of the game and I am also an RPG lover myself. Anyway, recently I took a video of me playing it. I've put some balloon dialogues for added fun ^^. Have a look.

Amazing Race - Malaysian Student Association U of A

Last year, we organized an Amazing-Race like activities for fun. We had 6 teams and 6 cameras following each team. I find that compiling all those videos from different cameras was quite challenging. You had to have a sense of time and order of which events happens. I am wondering how the Amazing Race crew does it. Anyway, here are the compiled video. I was in 'Team Ali'. (Part 1) (Part 2) (Part 3)

Another day of winter

Just a video of me recording myself while on my way home after class. Nothing much.

Should I change blog title?

Lately, I feel weird looking at the word Ron -.-

It was intended to reflect my online nickname when I play MMO games.
But, since I study thermodynamics in school, I am getting more familiar to 'RON' as chemical component in fuel. -.-

So, I'm going to change it soon. Winter 2012 is ending soon anyway. :D

Sound diabetes

Double bass amplifier setup (Triple, if counting Windows 7 sound driver amplifier)

 I'm do not always listen to music, but when I do, I make sure that it sounds sweet.

*WARNING* Do not expose yourself to loud sound excessively. Enforce a time limit.

Another day of Winter - Brace yourself, busy weeks are coming.

At the right side are my notes on tasks due dates for the next 3 weeks.

Hectic.

Ya Allah please help me to go through each one of them!!

Return to myself.

You know... I often feel that I am much inferior that what I used to be during my childhood.

When I was a kid, I was full of energy, keep pestering others, love to have bicycle race with friends, play with mud, annoys my teacher in school, kick my innocent friend out of nowhere.
But those aside, I always enjoyed hanging with friends, be the one who called for a groupwork doing homework, sell 'rare' printed material I made with 'rare' computer.

But now, look at me. Sitting at my own bedroom looking at the monitor screen reflecting myself. Haha!

If it is possible, I would like to travel to the past and face to face with me from then.
I would like to ask
"Do you like the way I am now?"
"Do you feel like want to punch me in the face?"
"Is the kind of people I'm hanging out with right now looks right to you?"
"Do you like my attire?"
"What do you think about my hair? Nah, I don't think you care, but yah... what do you think?"
"Do you think my dedication towards Islamic teaching is enough?"
"Do you think I spend too much on entertainment?"
"From your point of view, am I keeping good relation with my family? Or do I seems to be too far distanced?"

This is the me who I want to meet.

There is a bunch of stuff that I would like to discuss with him if I have the chance.

*butterfly effect*
And one thing, if there is one advice that I will give him for his new world line... I will say...
"Always love your family. Don't be afraid to depend on your family. They have been very helpful to me in my time of need, and they will also be helpful to you".


Hahah. look at me. ranting about myself. T_T
OK back to the damn endless assignments!

(p/s: The first ever picture of me from pre-secondary school ever posted on internet. Woot! Woot!)

Another day of winter: Looking for the ideal state of myself

Recently, whenever I am up to a certain task, I always wonder how good can I pull it off. No matter, homework, assignments, group tasks, etc. Sometimes I am unsure. Sometimes I feel not motivated enough. Sometimes I feel not being at my best state to do it.
It results in me not giving the best dedication that I should have given for the task.

From my point of view, the world is getting to look like those old pictures in sephia. Dull.
VERY DULL. I begin to question the purpose of everything that I do.

Why am I here. What am I doing. What I should do next. Why I should do it.

And yes, I am living within the community of engineering students, lecturers, and workers. Until now, I still wonder what are their sources of motivation whenever they are working on something. Is it money? Happiness? Why are they doing the thing that they do? Where is the source of their motivation and curiosity?

Every night before I sleep, I usually feel frustrated thinking of my lack of enthusiasm for the day. I don't know. There isn't much feeling of enjoyment in completing my assignments anymore. Not as much as it used to be.
I wonder if this means that I am bored?

Right now, out of 6 subjects that I am taking, there is only 2 that I can relate to my interest. The rest are SHIT that I have to make sure I know so that I am up to par with other people. I am not sure what others are thinking about this, but personally I think this is forced learning, and I do not enjoy it. And this is only the third year of university. God knows what I will deal with in the fourth year, wallahualam. I hope there will be something that I am interested in.

Well, *sigh*. Motivation. Motivation. Come to meeeee!!!

Terrible social network

I don't know about you guys, but I think my facebook page has become another 9gag page. -.-
Full of memes.

In fact, it is worse. Not only it collects memes from 9gag, but also dozens other gag community. I believe the situation has come to a point where I feel disgusted of my facebook page.

I am thinking, how can I unsubscribe from these pages, while still get up to date on latest trends?
How? How?